Change is coming.

It's interesting to sit here and know that things are changing as I write in both my life and the lives of those around me. The past couple of days have been spent in this strange daze. It's as if I know things are changing this year but in my pursuit of trying to figure out what I've only succeeded in making myself dizzy with all the searching. I just have this....knowing....in me that things are happening. Changing. Shifting. Growing. At the end of this year life is going to be crazy. I can't wait. Yet, I can. Ah isn't that the funny thing about humans. We can't wait for life to start and yet, scared to death when it does. We want it all figured out right now but if God told us His will before the needed time it would throw us all in a tizzy destroying our future. Sigh. I have things I want to say but it's as if my heart's words are locked inside and I can't find the key. Maybe I don't hold the key. There are times when all I want to do is write. Write something, anything. Oh well, I can't have it all I guess. :) I'll write more later when I've figured it all out. <3

"My Utmost for His Highest"...

Today was the first day of Word First. I already have so much to think, pray and confess over. There are so many little sayings that have been floating through my head the past couple of weeks and it's as if God is trying to say something-
"God is rarely early but NEVER late."
"Perhaps it's not as difficult as I'm making it."
"If you knew your future it would paralyze your days."
"All I have seen has taught me to trust God in what I haven't seen."
"God doesn't change His mind, we change ours."

I don't really know what to say. I'm tired of writing about all my "good intentions" and then going back later to discover that that's all they were- good intentions. I'm tired of being the self proclaimed "idea girl." I want to DO something with my life. So no more speculating. I'm off to live. Right here. Right now.