I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
-John Waller-
There have been times in my life where I have prayed about things and felt like God was leading me in a direction. I went toward the path I thought He was directing me but as I took my steps I talked to people about it. I was so excited about working on God's will! I wanted to share it with everybody! Yet, the more I spoke the less I believed in what I was doing. The more I listened to the people around me the less I believed in myself. The less I believed in what I felt God had told me. A personal problem? Of course!
I've been thinking a lot about Abraham and how much I kinda feel like him. Granted he was a man and I am a woman. He was married, I am not. He is the father of the great nation of Israel and I am little me who doesn't have much to offer. Here's where I feel kinda like him. You see God told Abraham that he was going to be the father of many nations and Abraham believed God. They have this great conversation about how Abraham's children will be as the number of the stars. Then in Genesis 15:6 it says: "Abram believed the LORD, and he credited it to him as righteousness." There was no doubt in Abraham's mind. So the way I figure it is the guy goes home and tells his wife the great news! I mean here Sarai has been barren and now the God of the universe is declaring they're going to have a baby! Sweet! Well, in the very next chapter it all goes to pot.
Genesis 16:1, 2 "Now Sarai, Abram's wife, had borne him no children. But she had an Egyptian maidservant named Hagar; so she said to Abram, "The LORD has kept me from having children. Go, sleep with my maidservant; perhaps I can build a family through her." Abram agreed to what Sarai said."
Abraham is walking along, probably having some doubts every now and then but hey, it's cool. God said it was gonna happen so it will! Then Sarai pulls her little stunt. She goes to Abraham and talks him out of believing in God's truth. Granted that's his own problem. He should have fought for his promise. Yet, Sarai, his wife and friend, has this amazing ability to change his faith process. Even if it was for a second, a second is long enough to change the course of your life. She talked him out of his faith. Abraham does his thing with Hagar and Sarai resents him for listening to her. For not fighting for the promise that God had given them. Great guy huh? Great wife? Then comes God. Like a knight in shining armor He's gonna fix the mess they've made. Abraham listening to other people, Sarai talking about things she shouldn't be.
Genesis 17:1-4, 17, 19, 22
1"When Abram was ninety-nine years old, the LORD appeared to him and said, "I am God Almighty; walk before me and be blameless. I will confirm my covenant between me and you and will greatly increase your numbers."
Abram fell facedown, and God said to him, "As for me, this is my covenant with you: You will be the father of many nations." Abraham fell facedown; he laughed and said to himself, "Will a son be born to a man a hundred years old? Will Sarah bear a child at the age of ninety?"Then God said, "Yes, but your wife Sarah will bear you a son, and you will call him Isaac. When he had finished speaking with Abraham, God went up from him."
Abram fell facedown, and God said to him, "As for me, this is my covenant with you: You will be the father of many nations." Abraham fell facedown; he laughed and said to himself, "Will a son be born to a man a hundred years old? Will Sarah bear a child at the age of ninety?"Then God said, "Yes, but your wife Sarah will bear you a son, and you will call him Isaac. When he had finished speaking with Abraham, God went up from him."
So here God's reminding Abraham what He had promised but Abraham is still thinking about Sarai's words. I mean the guy had to be. He's laughing thinking how old they are. How God hasn't come through yet. But God looks at the old man and reiterates His promise once again- "Yes, but your wife Sarah will bear you a son." Then God leaves.
All this because one woman opened her mouth and expressed her doubts. Again I'm not saying that Abraham has no responsibility in this. He was told by God what was going to happen.
My point in all this- once God gives you a promise, fight for it, no matter how long it may take for it to come to pass. Fight like your life depends on it. When doubts come through people or facts don't let them steal your promise. It's your job to fight for it. No one else is going to fight. You may be wrong. You may have heard God wrong. He may have said "I'm going to give you a daughter and not a son" but you heard "you're getting a son". Yet, wouldn't you rather fight valiantly for a wrong thing with a sincere heart than wimp out just because you're scared? No one can keep you from God's destiny except yourself.