Slipping like sand through a sieve...

*I grew up hearing Kelly sing this*

I have journeyed through the long, dark night

Out on the open sea,

By faith alone, sight unknown,

And yet His eyes were watching me.

The Anchor holds, though the ship is battered.

The Anchor holds, though the sails are torn.

Well I have fallen on my knees, as I faced the raging sea,

But the Anchor holds, in spite of the storm.

I've had visions and I've had dreams;

Well I've even held them in my hands,

But I never knew those dreams could slip right through

Like they were only grains of sand.

O, the Anchor holds, though the ship is battered.

The Anchor holds, though the sails are torn.

Well I have fallen on my knees, as I faced the raging seas.

O, the Anchor holds, in spite of the storm.

Now I have been young, but I am older now.

O and there has been beauty these eyes have seen;

But it was in the night, when I faced the storms of my life.

Oh, that's where God proved His love to me.

The Anchor holds, though the ship is battered.

The Anchor holds, though the sails are torn.

I have fallen, fallen down on my knees as I faced the raging seas.

But the Anchor holds; O, in spite of the storm.

I said I've fallen, fallen down on my knees as I faced the raging seas;

But the Anchor holds, in spite of the storm.

Rear view mirrors

You know I was talking to a friend today about the past and wishing some things weren't the way they had happened....you know the whole "re writing history" business? Well, I remembered something my daddy told me once- Your life is like a car. Your perception of your past occurs through your rear view mirror. If you stare too long through it you'll run off the road and get hurt. Yet, if you never look at it you risk not realizing the things that are coming up behind you that can hurt you. The key is to glance back every once and a while...to find a balance between staring and never looking. 

The idea is much easier said than done. Yet, it's true. If you spend too much looking behind you there is a greater risk of crashing. It's funny because my real problem right now isn't so much my past as much as my future. I don't like not knowing...not when my future costs $100,000. I wish I could just KNOW what I'm supposed to do when I graduate. I don't need to know who I'm going to marry or how many children or even where....I just would like to know what I'm supposed to do. So I don't mess it all up. I know I know. Silly. I'll figure it out some how, some day. It would just nice for it to be sooner than later. :) hmmm...

I thought it was getting bigger...

So I don't remember if I ever told this story but I walk talking to a friend while walking by the campus Frisbee group and I suddenly remembered it!
Ok so during camp I learned many things. Kids like to paint toilets with finger nail polish, they get homesick when sick, they argue about the silliest things, they do creative but messy things like make snow out of packing peanuts. Well, one thing I didn't realize before camp was how potentially life threatening they were.
So this happened my second term at camp....it was a rough time for me. lol Most of the previous escapades occured during this time. It was during the eat out when we had the backyard games. I was walking around with my camera taking pictures of all the fun going on when one of my campers caught my attention. I look at her and I notice she has a Frisbee. All of a sudden she looks at me and says, "Hey Kathleen, catch!" Well, I in all my glorious naivety, didn't think she was actually going to throw it. My hands were full with the camera and something so I looked at her and laugh. All of a sudden she throws her arm back and let's the thing go flying....straight toward my head. hahahahahaha I couldn't believe she had done it but it's pretty funny now. So that's another memory from where the Heart is. :)