A Will Not Yet Lived

The LORD Appears to Elijah and the word of the LORD came to him: "What are you doing here, Elijah?" 10 He replied, "I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too."

11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by." Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave. Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"

14 He replied, "I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too." 15 The LORD said to him, "Go back the way you came, and go to the Desert of Damascus. When you get there, anoint Hazael king over Aram. 16 Also, anoint Jehu son of Nimshi king over Israel, and anoint Elisha son of Shaphat from Abel Meholah to succeed you as prophet. 17 Jehu will put to death any who escape the sword of Hazael, and Elisha will put to death any who escape the sword of Jehu. 18 Yet I reserve seven thousand in Israel—all whose knees have not bowed down to Baal and all whose mouths have not kissed him."



1 Kings 19: 9-18

This story has been on my mind the past couple of weeks. I have thought and prayed about it, not quite understanding why it's been so heavy on my heart. Tonight I think I might have discovered why. You see there is verse 11 where God tells Elijah to walk outside because the Lord is about to walk by. Yet, there are three situations before Elijah ACTUALLY walks outside. There are times when God reveals His will to us. He tells us to walk outside for the Lord is about to walk by. Yet, in our wisdom we need to wait for the right moment to actually walk out. We need to wait for the correct moment to fulfill the things God has told us. Elijah could have stepped out when the wind came but it wasn't when God walked by. He could have stepped out when the earthquake came but God wouldn't have been there and the same with the fire. Yet, there was that moment when Elijah KNEW God was walking by, he knew that it was time to walk out. We all have times in our lives when God has spoken things into our lives but we aren't free to walk His will out until He gives us that freedom. I have had many things prophesied over my life that are still being worked out in my life. God's will has been revealed to me about different things in my past that there will come a time when it will come to fruitition. God will "walk by." The thing is that in order to know when God is walking by we have to know Him and His presence. The Bible says that we are His sheep and we know His voice.

Still by Watermark

The more I get alone

The more I see I need to get alone more,

Cause just when I think that I'm alone

Your Spirit calls out to me

And even silence has a song

Cause that's when you come

Sing over me

Still, let me be still

Let me be OK

With the quiet in my heart

Still, I want to be still

I'm so quick to move

Instead of listening to you

Shut my mouth

Crush my pride

Give me the tears

Of a broken life,

Still

Oh this world, it falls around me

And flutters all it's beauty in my eyes

But let me choose the solitude

Simplicity has always simply changed my life

Cause even stillness makes me move

Cause that's when my heart

Learns to dance with you

Still, let me be still

Let me be OK

With the quiet in my heart

Still,

I want to be still

I'm so quick to move

Instead of listening to you

I'm your child

Tame my heart

Obedience

To me impart

Still

La la la la la, Hold me

La la la la la, Cleanse me

La la la la la, Change me,

Oh God Change me while I am

Still, let me be still

And know that you are God

And you are always enough

Still, I want to be still

To take all that I am

And simply lift it up

Shut my mouth

Crush my pride

Give me the tears

Of a broken life,

Still

Change is coming.

It's interesting to sit here and know that things are changing as I write in both my life and the lives of those around me. The past couple of days have been spent in this strange daze. It's as if I know things are changing this year but in my pursuit of trying to figure out what I've only succeeded in making myself dizzy with all the searching. I just have this....knowing....in me that things are happening. Changing. Shifting. Growing. At the end of this year life is going to be crazy. I can't wait. Yet, I can. Ah isn't that the funny thing about humans. We can't wait for life to start and yet, scared to death when it does. We want it all figured out right now but if God told us His will before the needed time it would throw us all in a tizzy destroying our future. Sigh. I have things I want to say but it's as if my heart's words are locked inside and I can't find the key. Maybe I don't hold the key. There are times when all I want to do is write. Write something, anything. Oh well, I can't have it all I guess. :) I'll write more later when I've figured it all out. <3

"My Utmost for His Highest"...

Today was the first day of Word First. I already have so much to think, pray and confess over. There are so many little sayings that have been floating through my head the past couple of weeks and it's as if God is trying to say something-
"God is rarely early but NEVER late."
"Perhaps it's not as difficult as I'm making it."
"If you knew your future it would paralyze your days."
"All I have seen has taught me to trust God in what I haven't seen."
"God doesn't change His mind, we change ours."

I don't really know what to say. I'm tired of writing about all my "good intentions" and then going back later to discover that that's all they were- good intentions. I'm tired of being the self proclaimed "idea girl." I want to DO something with my life. So no more speculating. I'm off to live. Right here. Right now.