Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Can't Sleep.

Can't say what is on my mind...
No one listens....
Too many excuses fall from their lips onto my hands...
Trying to wash them clean...
Yet the stains remain...
My eyes fill with tears as my heart drops to the floor...
The condemnation I feel is no longer yours...
I've taken it upon myself...
As a yoke upon my shoulders...
I know I'm not right and you always are...
These lines I'm fed by my head break all chains of hope...
Gone gone gone...
Drip drip drip...
Shattering my strength and leaving me with only tears and pain...
I messed up once.
I messed up twice.
I messed up three times.
Am I past forgiveness?
Is this who I am forever chained to be?
I know the answer but I'm downward spiraling.
Grasping for the end of what?
I know not.
The rope? The peace? The hand?
I wonder if I'm past redemption...past change...past love.
Gone gone gone.
Drip drip drip.
These questions. This doubt.
Scares me and leaves me in a padded cell with no way out.
Gone gone gone.

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