It's beginning to look alot like...

School is here. I'm excited by the thought but with that excitement comes the amazing reality that it's my junior year. Seriously I would love for someone to explain to me where the last two years went?! Who knew that the old adage "time flies when your having fun" was true? Sigh. I must admit that part of me is a tiny bit worried about this fact. I don't want to look back when I'm 80 and wonder where my time went. I guess I just need to accept the fact that I'm going to have fun and so thus, time will fly which leads to the fact that I will look back on my life wondering where the time went. Time and change are the two things that we can't fight. Anyway, enough about THAT business. I'll be taking Social psychology, sociology, intro to financial accounting, communication & conflict, research methods in communication, choir, and technical communication. That plus family, church, friends, two jobs and ASA. Yup I'm gonna have one busy semester. :) I'm OK with it though (although grades come first so if those start to go down things are going to have to be dropped.) I've discovered that the busier I am the less time I have to sit and feel sorry for myself about the fact I'm single or worry about things that I don't need to worry about. lol I'm honestly excited for this school year and to see where God is going to take me. You know life has a funny way of turning out. I never really thought I would be here feeling as confident and strong as I do now. I am so thankful for the changes God has brought into my life! They have always been for the better despite my fear at the time that He was just trying to destroy me. Realizations like this always make me smile.

Friends we are....

So here I am sitting at Taylor and Kristen's computer listening to the night time music of the washer going as my fingers hit the keys. My eyes are half shut from exhaustion but I feel as if I need to write, something, anything. That if I don't I'll lose this moment and feeling forever. You know that song, "Count Your Blessings?" It's been running in my head this evening and I feel as if that's exactly what I need to do. God has blessed me so much this summer despite the ups and downs of my closeness with Him. Here are just a few things He's done, shown and taught me the past couple of months:
-I'm not as smart as I thought I was.
-I'm not as good as I thought I was.
-That with God anything and everything is possible.
-Church is one of the most important things a Christian can be part of.
-Children have an amazing ability to drive you crazy while causing you to want to squeeze them with hugs and love.
-Children are still children....it's the parents that are parenting.
-I have such an amazing family.
-I have amazing friends.
-I'm stronger and more disciplined than I thought I was.
-That smiling even when you want to puke really can keep you from throwing up.
-I have WAY too much stuff to be so young.
-I am a quiet leader who will step when necessary but can follow at the same time.
-Saying "Yay camp" in an excited tone can boost your morale ALOT.
-I'm going to miss the girls from camp very very VERY much. :'(

There are more things but I kinda feel as if I'm just repeating myself. Yes, I'm ready to be back in the "real world" but there was a certain atmosphere about The Heart that I will dearly miss. Singing after lunch and dinner, looking at the stars with Ashley on our walks back to our cabins, walking in to my cabin and hearing my girls yell "Kathleen" because they missed me, getting to see the smiles of the girls faces as we ate ice cream, hearing the screaming laughter during field sports, seeing Reagan's smile as she laughs away her tears, on and on and on the memories will linger like Christmas lingers on into January. This was one of the best and hardest experiences in my life and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

"Give me a rose in the winter time,
When they are hard to find
Give me a rose in the winter time,
I've got roses on my mind,
Roses, sweet, anytime and yet,
Give me a rose in the winter time,
How easy we forget.

Give me a friend when I'm all alone,
When they are hard to find.
Give me a friend when I'm all alone,
I've got friendship on my mind.
Friends are sweet, anytime and yet,
Give me a friend when I'm all alone,
How easy we forget.

Give me a smile when I'm feeling blue
When they are hard to find.
Give me a smile when I'm feeling blue
I've smiles upon my mind.
Smiles are sweet, anytime, and yet,
Give me a smile when I'm feeling blue
How easy we forget.

Give me peace when there's talk of war
When peace is hard to find.
Give me peace when there's talk of war
I've got peace upon my mind.
Peace is sweet, anytime, and yet,
Give me peace when there's talk of war,
How easy we forget."

"Friends we are
And friends we'll always be
Who ever wins we'll follow faithfully.
Heart Camp girls we'll always be!
Till we meet again....meet again."

Don't Forget Me

So the past week has been insanely busy but at the same time so much fun. Part of me wants to go all deep and philosophical but I'm pretty much tired. Also I have discovered this one annoying trait about myself....as soon as I'm ready to write on here about my current feelings and such....they just disappear like vapor in a wind. It's rather strange and frustrating. Anywho, I think I'm going to write a list of goals that I have for this upcoming school year....I've been thinking about it quite a bit and have decided I want to establish some habits that are actually useful....aka not reading so much. S0 here are some that I've thought of so far:
-cook a pot roast at least once
-buy and paint a bookcase or dresser
-learn to play guitar
-get up every morning by 8 and go running, stretch and some muscle building
-read and pray every day
-find, apply and recieve an internship for my degree so I can graduate
-apply for scholarships for senior year....no more stressing about money
-be debt free by December!!

This is all I can think of for now...I'll add as I go and let you know how I do.

Skipping down the yellow brick road...

It is 4:41 PM as I write this and I have to leave in 10 min to go pick up Taylor from work since for the past two days I have been the self designated taxi driver for the Scogin family. :) Yay for driving again! I still need to brush my teeth before I go back to camp...and pack for that matter. I really hope I didn't mess up and get my times mixed up. Sorry if I did. The last few days have been relaxing and fun. I miss my "me" time which would also be known as "those moments when I can be completely by myself without anyone to disturb me with random information in voice that could often be considered yelling." Yup. Those are moments I will never take for granted again.
An update on the glow-in-the-dark toilet. It doesn't glow anymore. I finally had the girls clean it up with nail polish remover and cotton balls. Yes, I opened the window so the fumes didn't kill us all. After that was done with lots of giggling from the girls and frustrated sighs from myself I had them clean the rest of the bathroom. So here I am standing in the bathroom watching Lauren scrub the bathtub. I look at the tub knowing it need some hardcore cleaning, so I tell Lauren to put some elbow grease into it. She gives me a strange look. I don't think much of it because 10 yr olds are in the habit of giving me strange looks. I would be poor if I paid them a dollar for every weird look they had given me this past term. Anyway, she gives me a strange look, shrugs her shoulders and proceeds to put her elbow on the rag and scrub. I look at her in astonishment and inquire of her as to what she's doing. Lauren looks at me, as only 10 yr olds can, succeeding in once again helping me realize just how bad of a communicator I am, and says, "you SAID put elbow grease into it!" I busted out laughing. Who knew that children would take an adults words so literally!? I guess a parent would know something like that. Well, the bathroom was successfully cleaned without anymore miscommunication on my or the childrens parts. Yay Four O' Clock Rock!
Well, I'm going to go brush my teeth and prepare myself for the up coming term. I'll write more on the adventures of the Heart later. :)