"Never let bad past experiences keep you from your future." I was told that this past week. Still not really sure what God is trying to say to me specifically but I'm muddling through the deep phrases of my heart to figure it out. I know that there are some things....pshaw....A LOT of things I need to let go of. I won't be 100% happy till I do. It's just hard...harder still holding on to things that I have no business holding onto. Shrug.
Thursday I had to deal with one of my campers getting sick. Honestly it was one of the proudest moments I've had since I went to camp. Pretty much I've felt like a complete failure as a employee, a teacher, a friend and a Christian. Stupid I know but when you go into a new area in your life where everything is new and everything you thought you knew come to find out you really didn't. Well, that can throw anyone on the self-esteem loop. Anyway, I remembered the wonderful training my parents gave me in the ways of preparing for throw up. hahaha Nausea+tears= trash can with a plastic bag. Thankfully the only vomit I had to deal with was throwing the bag away. She felt better and it was my night off so I came back to Kerrville for a little while to take care of some business. Well, as I was walking up to my cabin I specifically remember thinking, "oh the lights are off....gotta be quiet when I walk in so as to not wake the girls...sigh." (the sigh was a pleasant one. lol) So I QUIETLY open my extremely squeaky door and all I hear is......"KATHLEEEEEEN!" hahaha Needless to say I was pretty surprised. Come to find out and remember I have 10 yr olds. Wonderful girls who feel that the slightest thing that they don't plan for is the end of the world....One of the girls pulled the shower rod down on her head. We all had a pretty good laugh because this poor child is quite accident prone. She's hit her head several times already and I even jokingly told her to keep her horseback riding helmet on at all times just to protect her head. Anywho then come to find out this self-same girl gave away our last roll of toilet paper. Why she did such a thing I shall never know. Out of the kindness of her heart toward the poor camper asking for some? Perhaps but I kinda wish she had kept some of that kindness for her own cabin. ;) So I went down to get more. Slammed the door into another door accidently. Nearly made my heart stop. All I could think of was, "Oh my word I woke the dead and they're gonna be maaaad." hahahahahaha Once again, dumb thought but when it's 11:00 at night in an abandonded room where only cobwebs and toilet paper lives you might think the same thing. I book it back to my room with enough toilet paper to last three weeks and get every calm and in bed. Then.........more vomiting. I take care of that and everyone finally falls asleep. THEN I wake to the sound of squeaky door opening and I jerk my head up thinking the Heads are coming to tell me I did something wrong. It wasn't. It was one of the other counselors who was supposed to be watching my girls while I was off but totally forgot. In near tears she apologizes for the complete laps of remembering after which I told her everything was ok and that a Heart Lite covered for me afterall. She left and my first night of craziness ended in blessed sleep. Somehow I was able to sleep with the deep satisfaction that I handled it all very well and that my mothering skills were well learned from playing house as a girl. ;)
I now officially think that the key to being a good mother is humor. If you can laugh about it then you can deal with the big stuff properly. Now I don't mean laugh about EVERYTHING. There are some things that kids do that just aren't funny but those mishaps that just happen...like a curtain rod falling (with no one getting hurt) and the bathroom becoming flooded or your kid using the last of the toilet paper and not telling you...those things....just laugh. You'll show your kids that you don't sweat the small stuff and in the end I honestly think that they'll respect and enjoy your company more. (Although sometimes this is easier said than done. lol)
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